Saturday, December 30, 2006
hwaiting
k, pia-ing more fan fic out... since got constant readers.... hahha
really want some of my works to becum a drama series...the fans wants it too...
but... i need to translate it first to make it feasible?
new yr coming.. new yr resolution?
to be out of current financial status, be able to send me to kyung hee uni for mass comm studies...
Jaejoong pwns 11:07 AM
Thursday, December 21, 2006
i finally know
mr danny yeo, this is for u...
i finally found out what i want to do or be when i graduate. after feeling lost for years, being afraid of still being clueless on what i liked, i actually found out...
actually the answer was within me all along, its just that it has not grown strong enough to tell me that i like to be this...
joined chs, by chance i would say. I chose my desired courses by my result. eg. science A1? choose biomedical and other science related stuff.. POA A1? accountancy and business.. maths A1? chinese A1? chinese studies... so on...
well, i did not arranged basing on what i like most, random-ly i got in CHS (first choice) my mum wanted me to join this as she thought i would be a teacher. *gosh* she was starting to worry about my future as i am in media track instead.
ok, then i am lost. so i am not as sure as teaching track students that i'll be teacher... i do not have a dream occupation... i feel i adapt to environment easily thus all decent jobs are ok... because of this ok-ness, it became tougher for me to say out what i like to work as...
talked to danny yeo, he said it is ok and its even good to be lost as i will get in touch with different things before i focus on a track... ya, i did touch on many... i touched on music (i wanted to be musician in SCO) i touched on accountancy, i touched on teaching (taught a few small kids as students) touched on F&B, thinking maybe i should just dumbly work in Food related jobs, my dream was chef or pattisier..
thanks to ray ng, that i realised that i know what i prefer more out of all my ok choices... when i was doing for press release homework... partly it was because i feel schedule was tight and i need to be fast, i quickly found a client and work for them (well, but bigger the organisation the tougher to get their info) thus i put myself down saying we're not up to it and work for someone else... one day, and its done! i start to like the feel of being a journalist (maybe this "like" is there when i was in SPH)
ok! so i do like media related stuff... (upcoming podcast i hope i can hands on and really do something, i believe it will be something i like too as when i see chieling and ppl do the protools thingy, my hands kinda itch, wanna try it out... and when danny yeo talk about how to play with some techniques i was super fascinated and wanna hear how sounds like....)
but i am not staying in Singapore, as singapore's media market is too small and too conservative to break through...
contacting some overseas university now, which are established in media... hope i have the $$$$ and ability to study there... wish me luck!
Jaejoong pwns 4:40 AM
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
mp3
its been a long time since i start to use my mp3 again... i used it not only for killing time, kick away the boredom during long journeys...but it is to let myself to live in my own world awhile, not hearing words spoke by poison tongues... giving a peace of mind for a moment. i dont have to care and bothered by what people say.. my mood, is being controlled by me and my mp3 not theeand my mood is in my control... if i wanna be happy i shall listen to happy songs, i wannabe sad and even shed tears, i will listen to sad songs... to feel frustrated will listen to those very hot with angst songs...well... mp3, its not only to be hip cool and kill time.. its my way to escape from reality for a little sweet moment... =)
Jaejoong pwns 8:31 AM
Monday, December 11, 2006
my blog is alive
just finish eating something that i should abstain.. but... i ate it.. crabs... lol.... been vomiting and visiting toilets more than usual... some say its stress... well, hope i am not having anoxeria (which is so impossible when i love food)after so much ups and downs in my life recently i have finally straightened out my thoughts... not mine= let go, but still this feel will be treasured and kept at heart, as one of my best memories... and good friends... well, i am not that obsessed after all.. guess i am still suffering in the transition period since tt failed trial of bgr. i am like, no longer have faith in love perhaps...flying to china like in 2 months time, i pray and pray that nothing goes wrong within our class and other classes... but it seems things are cropping up... like a girl being sad in my class, other class ppl ostracizing me... oh well... i believe those who loves me will support me, i believe i stil have supportive frens... do i? i better be wise is what i say.. coz... there are always ppl watching at me... hahha... creeps
Jaejoong pwns 8:12 AM
Friday, December 08, 2006
finally i'm back
somehow, its been donkey days since i last blog...many things had happened (just like huiyu says)i sorta did something wrong then i start to doubt myself, esp my decision, whether is it on impulsegreat events happenedi start to work lesser. super less... wanna stop being iron lady and superwoman for a term...just stop working, study study study, spend time with families friends and love ones.. but haix... no love ones.., haha helped out in nan an's 80th anniversary, exposure, and application of my skills learnt from soup spoon,
(i thought i was running shift that day) haha. manageable though... drank some wine... then helped out in the red camp's parent's forum... well.. one of the parents thought i'm from china.. do i have that striking resemblence? or is it just my height my skin color and my intonation? hmmm.. had fun.. took some picturesmy belated birthday celebration... oh well... i invited my guest... hmm kinda i planned wat to do on tt day coz i noe i dont like to do shopping, so instead of they plan and i put glum face, so its better i do what i like..aha.. makan session... just chilling out will do.. and of coz! instead of frens crackin head thinking wat i shud get for prezzie i say out is easier for them and for me !! ahah... (but i feel those clothes i try on looks nice...) got my DBSK dvd... more prezzie coming up i assumeand of course!! one of my belated present, was actually a key to clear up all misunderstanding.. so it is a memorable birthday for me. as in, though we nv brought up the misunderstanding nad clear it just let it die down and carry on our frenship, but believed will be closer from now on... but kinda worried bout her health... as she is not pregnant yet having those symptoms of having baby cats... hmmmya that dinner for my belated celebration was perhaps most memorable one... coz loowin!!! she came!!! she usually will ehem... u noe.. haha... touched!!! and surprisingly the guest came too... and jiali too!! (kaiboon, u nearly make me wu4 hui4 jiali tt she ps me, coz u agree without letting her noe!!!) ate alot... (now i condemn coffee club's tiramisu latte... guess i wont touch coffee for time being...)kinda dont like grouping for hw.. like i will always miss out someone.. and hurt ppl.. dunno lehbut if i dun voice out as usual, do i get treated fairly? but if i voice out ppl get upset? wat on earth am i going to do? being soft hearted is not the way to live... follow my feel... yes i do work according to how i feel but sometimes thinking of consequences, it will over turn my feels.. force myself to do it... i admire those who work according to their feelings.. really, they kinda dun have to think of consequence and be tied down...well, as for my love life recently, other than fameing my sweetheart JJ as my laogong (imaginary), or set my expectations as it is now.. i am feeling super empty and hollow, of coz not much desires yet as i am super busy till sometimes cant even reply my frens online.. sorry!!! but i got no time... and last time when i was freeer , i'm glad i've tried things i wanna try like going to watch superband so on.. so its time i turn back to be my oldself, get busy... no more gatherings for me till when i free? of course sch base outings i will attend... haha...liking someone esp someone with fame is not easy.. coz he will nv see u as an admirer, but a fans.. and when u noe u are treated this way.. it is more hurting than seeing him in convo with everyone else just not u...overall, busy but fun!? hahha
Jaejoong pwns 8:34 AM
COMING SOON after SPM when i have nothing to do but write crap. <3